Today was fathers day.
Get up, bake a fathers day cake, wake up dad, make him feel like the worlds greatest dad, feed him the cake, have a daughter-dad-duo time, make merry.
These are exactly the things i couldn't do today.
Which i obviously planned but then ultimately failed to live up to.
I got home this morning after a very fucked up 18th.
Yes BTW, 18th of every month is very special for my feiends and me?
We'll get into this story later, okay? Okay.
So i returned home after a very fucked up 18th and slept for so long that by the time i got up dad had left already.
More so he's not a huge fan of such days.
But we always celebrate it for him and this time we couldn't.
I have this unconditional love budding for dad every other second. But i do not find the courage to tell him that. Thinking about everything he's been , the role he played in my life. Huge debt if i go to pay it all off emotionally and otherwise too.
You do not want to know how i've lived my childhood like a princess. Literally princess.
Without even having to ask dad for it.
I named it and i had it the very next day.
But such memories wear off. they remain vague in front of the part wherein i never really gotto ask dad for it.
Regret is won't be able to express pent up feelings to whom its a matter of concern.
Has and always will be my weakness.
I hope he reads these posts someday.
I love you father.
I love you father.
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