Change - A Boon or a Bane?

Yuck this kd spoke some serious shit the other day.. And when i begged him to explain he didn't.

But that somehow left me thinking and analysing things for too long..

It was about the change.. The change that i opted for..

The conversation goes like this..

Seema: "I really wanted to be boy.. i used to dress up the way you now do.. used to play football..Started listening to rock, metal.. and all"

Sumedh: "So why did you give all that up?"

Seema: "Not totally .. i still listen to metal .. i stopped dressing up like boys though.. and left umm..! maybe cuz i realised that it's much more fun to be a girl and that all guys are jerks minus my friends and family :P "

Sumedh: "No i think you left cuz u started feeling insecure about it. its a major personality killer.. you fell prey to it"

Seema: "Insecure about what?"

Sumedh: "Insecure about not being the main stream.. about not being like others.. about not being an individual"

Seema: "No way! Whay would i ever feel that? Appearance doesn't matter to me.. As long as you still stand up for what you believe in the most, nothing can change you!"

Sumedh: "All that just feels nice to say"

Seema: "Err ! no explain me your take on this"

Sumedh: "Well explaining my take on this will take a lot of typing which i am not willing to do on my cell phone.. tujko online samjhaunga or probably when we meet up next time.."

You know, i took so much of time analyzing things cuz really when sumedh said this i felt as if i was punched right on my face.. Leaving me thinking as to why the fuck did i ever change..?! But i know the answer very well..  I don't want people to try understanding why the change. Nevertheless i do realize  that - the change is worth nothing and no one.. And yes ofcourse not forgetting, you're right cuz it was fear of being left alone under the pretext of not being a part of the MAINSTREAM.. The fear of looking like an alien under the pretext of being one of a kind.. YES I FELL PREY TO IT! But no, IT DIDN'T KILL MY PERSONALITY.. I can assure this! And if i take the change positively,aint the change supposed to be for the good of someone or something? ^_^