Just trying to tell you that....

For if you couldn't figure me out yet. I'll help you with this piece of information, i hate good byes.

I've always been hesitant about saying good bye to people.

Even if i know i'll be seeing you after a month i'll still hate goodbyes.

These goodbyes and me don't go along really well.

It's just a huge moment of long pauses colliding with your ability to speak up.
There are so many words waiting to come out of you. Anything that's make this stop.
But it fails. you fail yourself and then you'll be numb. poof!

World would be so much better if you kept on meeting awesome people.

And the best ones who made you happy, you could hide them in the closet where you hid your favourite toys so that the other kids don't take them away from you.

And this way we'll be living with all the happiness in this world.
But when will life get so generous?

Nevermind.

But then now every time a good evening ends, this will cross my mind.

What if maybe i had more time to convince myself, prior to the goodbyes.

I hope when i see them after ages i tend love them the same. Or maybe more

So maybe the life really need not be generous, otherwise all the love will have to just vanish from the planet.

Stupid how i make a post to convince myself that goodbyes are okay.
Anyway, I'd never find the courage to ever consciously tell you a goodbye.

So all this, because sumedh leaves for Hyderabad tomorrow.

Doesn't know for how long.
I wont make it to the airport  tomorrow morning.

I just want to tell you that show me your ugly face soon.
You will be missed.

This one's for you Dad.

In My Life- The Beatles (Rubber Soul)

There are places I'll remember
All my life, though some have changed
Some forever, not for better
Some have gone and some remain
All this places have their moments
With lovers and friends I still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life, I've loved them all

But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When I think of love as something new
Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life, I love you more

Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life, I love you more
In my life-- I love you more 

And i call John Lennon  a GOD! 

Happy Fathers Day, Dad.

Hello the non-functional blog and the lovely people still reading this :D
Today was fathers day.

Get up, bake a fathers day cake, wake up dad, make him feel like the worlds greatest dad, feed him the cake, have a daughter-dad-duo time, make merry.
These are exactly the things i couldn't do today.
Which i obviously planned but then ultimately failed to live up to.

I got home this morning after a very fucked up 18th.
Yes BTW, 18th of every month is very special for my feiends and me?
We'll get into this story later, okay? Okay.
So i returned home after a very fucked up 18th and slept for so long that by the time i got up dad had left already.
More so he's not a huge fan of such days.
But we always celebrate it for him and this time we couldn't.
I have this unconditional love budding for dad every other second. But i do not find the courage to tell him that. Thinking about everything he's been , the role he played in my life. Huge debt if i go to pay it all off emotionally and otherwise too.

You do not want to know how i've lived my childhood like a princess. Literally princess.
Without even having to ask dad for it.
I named it and i had it the very next day.
But such memories wear off. they remain vague in front of the part wherein i never really gotto ask dad for it.

Regret is won't be able to express pent up feelings to whom its a matter of concern.

Has and always will be my weakness.

I hope he reads these posts someday.
I love you father.

I'm back and all that.

I'm back bum sloggin for almost over 3 months.

The continuous exams have made my life miserable.

Something in there just keeps me going though :)

Well a friend just happen to remind me of my blog, which has become so non-functional ever since i joined this microblogging site. I don't find the time to use the internet and post on the blog everyday.

I'll just help myself looking for some application for blogger on phone. That way, I would not have to make an extra effort to set my thoughts free here.

Till then i promise to keep you posted.