Sorry readers :)

Yea so it's been months ever since i update my blog..
I'm resting my writing skills you know :P
not that you might be interested in knowing..

Actually i am laptop deprived :(
I dont have a medium to post.. the Desktop dad got is new and doesnt have the online user set up..
sucks no?" :|

*pbbttt*

Yes but seriously i've been using documents on my desktop..
I'll make it up to y'all .. Promise :D

Yea coming back to the blog posts,
The post updates shall happen all together at one time and VERY SOON..

Till then keep loving and keep reading :*

Himesh Reshamiya PWNED you

Yes our very own Himesh Reshamiya. And if you have no idea about him you're not gonah enjoy reading this also you should get your filthy ass out of India (Mumbai preferably) DUDE how can you not know HIMESHji.

The history of people who've been Pwned,

1. Michael Jackson:
Himesh Reshamiya's NEVER ENDING "Ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooh" is a major pwnt to Michael Jackson's THE FAMOUS "Aaaowww!
 He clear broke the record with his one single nose. So back in your face Michael! Back in your reconstructed face!

2. Barack Obama:
Mister president you may be ruling the most powerful country BUT do you have HIMESH's MOST POWERFUL CAP? Do you have the ability to record 987654321 songs a day? So back in your face Mr.President.

3. Manmohan Singh:
with all due respect sir, we know you have strategist's , writers - who spoon feed you the speech. But Apla Himesh, he composes, sings, acts, approves models in his video , EVERYTHING .. he does it all by himself!
So. Singh Is King? *NO!*

4. Prem Chopra:
The Tall and Big Daddy of Bollywood Rapists. With over 400 Movies. Prem Chopra has acted in over 250 Rape Scenes *Omg facts* :P
Apla Himesh Dances in weddings with scantily dressed teenagers still managing not to be called as a
*PEDOPHILE* So sorry Prem Chopraji this man pwnts you without even giving the slightest HINT of him being a *bad boy*

5. James Bond:
Sir so what if you have the access to all the coolest gadgets can you summon a fleet of Auto Rickshaws?
Amcha Himesh very much can do that! Even if it's Europe or Paris.

6. Santa Claus:
So what if people sing carols in your remembrance, It's only for a month. While apla Himesh is all over, with taxi walah's and auto walah's blaring his nasal-hits. He's OMNIPRESENT! Can you compete his influence over the local transport? huh? Sorry to say he Pwnts you too.
**This Doesn't mean you don't put a gift in my sock this year**
We left our dog behind, now he wont even bark on you, please come. Okay?

Ermm
So this is it.. Any more addition to the list will be posted as Himesh Reshamiya PWNED you 'DWITIYA'

More? Later.
Toodles :*

Desi-Twilight? Kthxbai.

Bahhh SCARY .. i just saw this promo to the desi version of twilight saga :-S
HAHAHA So the Ekta Kapoor's version to TWILIGHT is titlled as an 'FANAA'

Also everyone who disliked twilight for anonymous reason is soooo gonna prefer twilight over fanna :P
HAHA those retarded novels and the movies werent as bad as Ekats desi twilight (I never thought in my worst nightmares ever that i'll come across such a phrase. Not even once.)

I guess it's high time i should block star one , Star plus etc .. before i get struck by a lightning for having such channels on my TV.. :-S

*Goes looking for the TV remote*

what ze fuck?!

Zin-ee-Shaw!

I always wanted to post about this delusional female in my life..
previously i used to find her annoying.. But it's now that i've realized, she's one of those females, who've made me laugh so much..
HAHAHA like seriously.. more than anything i just ...erm.. say I just pity her the most..
The entire time she's confused as to what she wants in life..  and most of these time she's out there looking for love.. HAHAHA

And trust me,  ever since we guys decided never to speak again , she's always been saying this one thing.. HAHA yaa just one thing in zillions of occasions.. I am sure you'd  want to know what exactly that one thing she keeps saying to me is..
Well in the following pictures you'll find  out. .

And also i want everyone to, pray for this female. I seriously want her to get well soon. For my ex's  sake.. after all he finds her better..
RIP you guys :)

Change in blog title.

PHEW!

So today i present a note to like whatever FEW 18 followers i have,let me tell you that (then) ' Forever is never long enough' is (now) Supaa Woman!

Yes, since the Superman died, i took the charge.

With a new name i feel super excited! WAIT! I mean SUPAA EXCITED! xD

Yes, also that you'll see the change in write-ups too :P

Also can i have a new designer please. I dont want red chuddy sticking out!

Till then, toodles :*

Also supaa is too hipster mo? But whattodo! Super is not available :( 

Inception.

The end definitely left everyone thinking if the top ever stopped spinning or not.. Cuz Mr.Nolan rolled the credits before anyone of us could actually find out ..
Well we could see the top wobble but still spinning ..
If the top had stopped spinning Leo really pulled off a beautiful crime ..
And if it dint stop, he certainly is living in his dreams..

End is more like this,
Leo was obsessed with his children right from the start.. So he walked away than just waiting to see if the top ever stopped spinning or not.. Cuz either way, all he wanted was to stay with his children in whatever place he could, so why not it  be a dream!

Random.

I watched Inception the other day .. And i concluded the truth.. That, everyone wants to replace reality with a memory .. We're all drifting between Reality and Dreams.. from Reality to Dreams and from the Dreams back to Reality .. What we don't have, always pleases us more than what we already have..

Unusual, but everything around me points in the direction one shouldn't even think about getting to, at this point.. It's extreme..

Perhaps, i am not giving up, i'm on way out :)

Also i noticed is that i have something for every obsessed lover.. Not obsession though. Whatever you call it man the loyalty, committment and the art of being content with whatever you have.. Whatever it is, it is charming!

I dont really know where is this post heading to .. exactly as i expected .. so i might just call this post random.. Thanks for reading ..

Just another Justin Bieber jocccz! :P

A Tiny piece of conversation from my Facebook 

Justin Bieber .. Panda Definitely .. 

Seema Singh July 8 at 8:09am

Goodmorning..
Do you know how priceless it is to go to college in my sis's car with those females signing in their "i-am-having-a-difficulty-in-passing-shit-out-of-my-body-vocals" :/

Sent via Facebook Mobile

Anirudh Bhate July 8 at 12:07pm

Must be Justin Bieber. Dhyan se sun. :P

Confessions & Promises.

Well i am not random this time.. This is after the FAIL attempt to patch my friend up with his ex girlfriend.. Whom he was through long ago.. and maybe he was very much or partially successful in getting over her.. But i suck.. And i had to do this to him.. Obviously cuz i suck..I realized that I have the tendency to make people desire what they've lost, with a hope that i'd help them find it. And also I just realized I've been lying to myself. Well, you don't mention things that happened in your past every now and then, specially when you're trying to get away from it.  Moving on seems like the toughest job to me right now. And hence all i am doing is, going ahead and making it difficult for everyone around me. Just so that, at the end of the day i am not the ONLY ONE - Who looks like a fool. So miserable. But not anymore. Whats gone is gone. No point in trying too hard to  win anybody back. Not giving anybody false hopes again.

And therefore i've decided, I am not going to be the stupid ant anymore. The one that falls and climbs back. Then falls again and tries climbing back again. Yes. I am not gonah be the wave that washes away the shore, every now and then. I am gonah be a bird. The one that would fly away somewhere - far! And never return back .. even if you'll be that one last resort.. I'll never get back.

And also that i want to get rid of these sad blog posts.. It's getting very monotonous..

And also that 10 years down the line when i re-read my written memories i dont want to come across any of this.. And hence i also promise to make it a point that all my posts from now onwards will be more friend and fun oriented.. and all the random happy posts.. but not you!

farewell sadness.

P.S. 'PAST' is called so for a reason. The same reason why they din't make to your future. :)

P.P.S. If i fall weak and nostalgic please feel free to slap this post on my face so that i feel strong again. 

Nothing is everything when everything is nothing.

As i lay on my best,

Listening to post rock,

I stare at the ceiling,

Watching the blades of the fan,

turn in blurry circles.

I wonder to myself,

Who am i?

What do i want?

Why is that,

I seek something to just realize,

i've just waste endless days,

trying to fix things and make them stay.

Why can't i just let some people walk away?

It wasn't so hard for a person like me.

What have i become?

Why doesn't the stagnant hatred,

just find its way out of my life?

Why is everything so transitory?

so  short-lived?

I can endlessly crib my way out. And i dont know why am i finding pleasure in doing this. But this isn't me. I never wait for things to just happen or the wounds to just heal over a period of time. I am a seeker. I put an end to all my problems on my own. And now, after letting loose all that i once had, i am here, lying on my bed - looking back in time.Time is ticking, we're all close to what we call an end. And still none of us want to give up. This time i've decided to be one of you'll and wait to see what pleasure you'll derive out of making others feel like shit for a mistake which is not  theirs. A mistake which you TOO might be committing but you still you resort yourself to only blame the other person, ALWAYS! All  i dont get what is going wrong? And there exist people who dont even know you and still hate you giving you those looks as if you're a taboo.

Well if tabooed is what i am that be it!

I can very much live with it.

AND,

With this very persisting lump in my throat since days,

i hereby promise to stay out of your lives

if that is what you'll want.

You'll spilled me out of your lives.

Not that i haven't tried to concealing things.

I've given my shot and it's time.

I am done.

And,

I am blinded.

All the back-to-back-fights with everyone.

The You-piece-of-shit-look-the new prof's giving me.

All the hate that's accumulated.

EVERYTHING!

is just making me,

want to run to a place where-in,

all these things would have no meaning.

And i am making sure,

none of these are leading me to you'll.

P.S. -Be the change you want to see.

P.P.S. -I just want to hit my head against the wall just to see what breaks first the wall or my head. :)

*Plays 'A Deafening Distance' and goes out to see the pre-rainstorm*

T0-be 0r n0t-t0-be?

To be or not to be

That definitely is the question

Living is again a form of death.

Slow death it is.

While death is just a sleep.

Life after death is,

The content.

The feeling of consummation.

You live,

But you live to a limit.

The limit being the fear,

fear of death.

fear of what lies on the other side of the death.

Fear of the other world,

But death on the other hand,

is freedom.

from the bourns of which no man returns.

irreversible happiness, probably?

You dream?

You can't!

Life after death is a DREAM, probably.

There's nothing more i can do.

This a note to you!

Yes you.

STOP haunting me.

I've been thinking you.

I've been writing you.

I've been seeing you.

I've been dreaming you.

and one thing i'm doing along is-

Hating you.

B-R-E-A-T-H-E

I don't know why am i even posting this.

But sometimes,

You just need to let it go.

Forget all the pain.

AND

*BREATHE*

The zillionth reason why shifting to New Bombay sucks!

It certainly is raining in all parts of Maharashtra except New Bombay.

WTF!

I was facebooking,

And within 10 secs,

i got 10 different status update,

from 10different peeps,

Telling how heavily it's raining

And how did the atmosphere just get interesting :|

Plus i am also surprised how people think differently ..

haha!

Plus look how people bring on the "awww its raining banter"

nevertheless, read on, laugh.

DrAjinkya Pawar Wooooohoooo it's raining n I m getting wet....it's so fun at last I got to get wet....!!!!:)


Hitesh Suvarna its raining now ... fuck i am going down to get wet ... full dancing in the rains ..


Bhavya Agrawal .... Can feel the smile on everyone's faces after the rain :P


Amey Shinde awsm!!!! itzz rainin heavily out here!!!!!!!! yeah :)


Yohann Benson Its RAINING!!!!!!!! :D :D


Siddhant Pradhan Rain!!!


Gaurang Khanvilkar Da Smell Of Mud In The Rain Is Too Good !!!


Disheet Shah Welcomes the RAIN GOD with 10,000 watt smile !!


Masoom ❼ Tulsiani And I can already imagine a girl...all Wet..with water dripping from her tresses..let me study :(, Damn...Rains !


Kunal Потрясенные Mehta The first drop fell like it was nothing until it was followed by it's fellow droplets.


-Ronak Damani- i love the smell. I can smell it. Yeah its rainin


-Ronak Damani- i thought its me who updated it first but every one already know its rainin... Awesome. Feel the breeze... Feel the monsoon... Happy monsoon people.


Mayur's Zephyr Finally its raining ! I'm going out to get wet asap !


Anand Kamath yea its raining its cool i can smell the mud .... why does everyone has to putit as their status update .. i pity guys having more than 500-600 friends and who are online at the moment :P


Aman Sinha Rains again...This time lightning too...:D


Prasad Badgujar "The silence isn't so bad' Til I look at my hands and feel sad' Cause the spaces between my fingers Are right where your's fit perfect"....... (stroke of monsoon!)





________

LET IT RAIN, LET IT RAIN!
LET IT RAIN HERE,
LET IT RAIN ON ME!

Little haiku on Indian politics.

The indian politics,

We didn't see much.

As the most of it,

Was under the table.

Finely-cut tobacco leaves wrapped in a cylinder of thin paper!

Xyz: "You smoke?"

Me: "If i don't answer will you die?"

Xyz: "No, but if you smoke you'll die."

Me: "Whatever!"

Xyz: "You're killing yourself."

Me: "Dont call it killing, call it Gentle Suicide."

Xyz: "Gentle? Wait, what?"

Me: "Cigarette butt."

*Xyz looks at me all confused*

Me: "Baby It rhymes." :P

FOR THOSE WHO DON'T - PLEASE DON'T SMOKE!

Peace!

Lame Uncomfortable Laugh.

The pointless reading on internet when i came across this article.

I let out a laugh.

Little did i know i spent the day thinking about what i'd read earlier.

The article read,

"Singlehood is the time to develop the craving, the absolute burning desire to give. I do not think anyone should look forward to being single. Singlehood ought to be unintentional or born of necessity."

Though i laughed it out,

I knew it meant something.

But wait,

I'm single and i've realized how content i am in my singlehood.

Atleast we singles dont look desperately for love to fill in the void,

Unlike those diseased lovers who can't help being a parasite.

I understand the sense of fulfillment when you're loved back,

But what's the use of a fulfillment unless you can't stay pleased even a moment all by yourself?

You really wont be able to help yourself if you go by the dictionary meaning of being single.

Well you need to know single doesn't only mean unattached, lonely, excluded companionless, alone.

IT ALSO MEANS FREEDOM, UNIQUE, INDEPENDENT.

Plus it's a phase of your life where'in you discover yourself.

Everything that you like, dislike.

You discover everything you are!

Dictionnaire Urbain

Okay..

I dont know what was going through my mind but i just happened to Google myself..

And to my surprise i came across this Urban Dictionary version to my name..

AILA! I eej famous i said to myself :P

And clicked on the link.

http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=seema

Urban-Dictionary-O-mania!

P.S. Dictionnaire Urbain(French) = Urban Dictionary (English)

Productive.. NOT!

Before i begin, its best to avoid whats written below. Thank you.

Definition: Failing to yield any positive results!

Well yes what i realize is that i have wasted my entire day today thinking about something i shouldn't.

All i dont realize is why is it that one moment i am so strong.

So confident.

And the very next moment i am so helpless.

Not knowing what to do,

And i end up wasting my time thinking all the possible crap.

And all this over thinking's got me into a trouble once again.

I dont know what to do.

should i just avoid or consider what the worlds saying?

I hate myself for not being able to take any decision.

I am hating the fact that i am being this parasite,

who's constantly talking it out with a friend begging for a solution.

Every now.

Every then.

Reconfirming the mistakes that its bad to commit mistake that i'd conscioulsy never commit.

But i am not trying to pull anybody down with me.

It's not making any sense to me,

that i am crying one moment.

And laughing at the very next moment thinking why am i crying for no reason.

I can't think of anything that could and should depress me.

Then why the fuck am i even stuck?

I am sure this feeling wont persist for too long.

Tomorrow i'll be just fine.

And then there will be another unproductive day,

where'in i'll fall in the same situation again.

And wouldn't know what to do!

WHAT?

What is it that goes wrong every other day?

Why is it that i fail to see a permanent solution?

Why can't just things workout on its own?

Why dont somethings just change?

Why can't we just recycle what is gone?

Why can't everyone just think like me?

Aren't we tired yet?

I am.

We've lived enough.

Now,

lets just put an end.

Kill whatever's left.

Pakistaan bans Blackberry services, You Tube, Twitter, Facebook , Wikipedia..

They just killed all their people. And the few survivors are begging the government to drop a bomb on them (too).

Insane as it sounds,

Government is afraid that its citizens will get carried away with all the western culture?

WHATS WRONG IN IT?

Why can't you just understand religion can't be forced.

If it has to, it comes from within.

By banning services what do you think you're doing?

You're losing all the faith by simply doubting them.

Well talking about the images of Prophet Muhammad, what you perceived as Blasphemous. Well that was a way to promote Freedom of speech in a totally another country.

And well you claim that to be blasphemeous? Well Blasphemy is what you are you selling your citizens! Go ahead ban the voices raised.

This is how much of a ball you got!?

What part of "FREEDOM OF SPEECH IS A RIGHT" doesn't get into your good for nothing brain?

You kill the source of whatever lil bit education your people are getting.

And we all know why, you do this because it's easier to fool the illiterates.

You're taking your country no where!

And maybe thats what you want.

I am tired of hearing a new shit everyday,

Pakistan bans Blackberry service (Aww!too bad. It's still okay.)

Pakistan bans TWitter (dude WTF!)

Pakistan bans You tube (WHAT! Are you insane?!)

Pakistan bans Facebook (HAHAH LULZ!)

Pakistan bans WIKIPEDIA (Well next time i see a dumb guy who doesn't know anything, well i'll know it already, it's some Pakistani dude who's government banned every possible source of knowledge.)

And dont call yourself different from iranians they put a ban on rock music and western films and what not, well you'll are not too far away from doing that!

Just...

whatever, Peace out.

If not then, read this. Find me. SHOOT me!

*Plays Sound of the republic*

Lyrics | Raised Fist lyrics - Sound Of The Republic lyrics

..and it's always gonah make me strong :)

Umm.. This by far is the most inspirational poem i've ever come across.
Well when i was a kid my mum recited this poem to me every time we get into deep conversations.
Now i realize how pricey each word of this poem is.
It will always be special to me cuz i was introduced to this poem and the poet by my mum :)

so here it goes, Agnipath by Shri Harivash Rai Bachchan.

Vriksh ho bhale khade,

Ho ghane, ho bade,

Ek patra chaa bhi,

Mang maat, mang maat, mang maat

Agnipath, Agnipath, Agnipath

Tu na thakega kabhi,

Tu na thamega kabhi,

Tu na mudega kabhi,

Kar shapath, kar shapath, kar shapath

Agnipath, Agnipath, Agnipath

Yeh maahan drishya hai,

Chal raha manushya hai,

Ashru, shwet, rakth se,

Lathpat, lathpat, lathpat

Agnipath, Agnipath, Agnipath.

Well and also that i've found that it's not about what happened with you. It's about how you get over it. Well what just happened with me, i am sure it hurt my parents the most. But then i''m not planning to give up. Not now, not later. NEVER!
I love you mom for making me so strong.
If not for you i wouldn't be living now.

Age is just a number.

"I never want to be old

And I don't want dependants

It's no fun to be told

That you can't blame your parents anymore "

- Steven Wilson. (Sentimental)

So much sense these 4 lines make.

How many of us actually want to grow up?
Be responsible?
Take responsiblities of your own self and the other few who'll depend on you, like almost 10 years from now?
It's so easy to be young, immature, foolish.
It's so easy to run and cling to your parents when you're in trouble.
It's easy to blame someone for your mistakes.
In short, It's so easy for us to run from whats coming tomorrow.

I myself somehow happen to hate the entire concept of growing up.
I dont wanna grow up.
I want to day dream my afternoon away.
I want to waste my weekends with friends.
I want hangovers, every monday.
I want to be taken care of.
I want to spend my day lazing around, chilling and listening to music.
I want everything i now am, as a child.
THE ONLY THING I WANT TO LIVE FOR IS, TODAY.

How i wish i could be more like Peter Pan and never grow up :)
But just as you know you're growing old you learn to take responsibilities.
Fearing responsibilities and refusing to accept them are two different things.
I have my responsibilities and i understand them perfectly.
But some how i fear the ones coming.

All you polished people who refuse to accept that they fear tomorrow - are nothing but children with zillions of layers of adult consciousness.
Deep inside you know you fear responsibillities as much as i do.
So far the favourite part my my day has been only nights. Cuz every next morning is just gonah make you old and sure as hell it'll come with a new responsibility everytime.
When you're a kid the desire to have a Xbox gets replaced by the desire to have Ferrari as you grow old and you keep working on it. Except that you dint have to earn your dreams for the former.
Dreams are just channels that connet you to your inner child.
Trust them.
There's so much you can love about life, only if you accept to face the child in you every morning you wake up.
It's only the acceptance that will unburden your ever-growing responsibilites.
Don't kill your inner child.
It would just make you someone else, someone so weak.
When the original purpose of life seems to have lost a connection with you ; your un-ending youth is the only antidote. And why not, good thing about still being a child is the unbribed imagination, curosity to learn & enthusiasm.

Remeber - Tomorrows not just consuming you, me or him- It's consuming US ALL!
Everything will be easy JUST-
"Trust yourself, your innerself.
Trust the child in you" :)

*Hits the play button. Sits back listening to Sentimental*

xoxo
Seema :)

Simple joys :)

Why is it the simple things of life that we loved  as children, we let fall to the way side of our youth?

:)

:)

Today i bring you bubbles, starlit sky, butterflies & flowers :)

I can't think of any other thing that brought more joy to me as a child than these.

Getting lost wondering what would it be like to touch the stars?

The joy i got inflating these bubble & then running behind them trying to burst all of them.

The happiness i felt looking at the flowers.

The desire of flying somewhere far away like a butterfly.

Such beautiful things in life that go ignored as we grow up.

*sigh*

I wish they would last forever, but then if they did - they would not be special! :)

Cheers!

xoxo,

Seema :)

Still we survived :)

Guys you ought to check this slide show out ..

I just randomly happened to find this when i googled a note my friend tagged me in.

Sit back. Read. Go re-live the memories :)

READ IT COMPLETELY, I INSIST!

Howdidonesurvive

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Shukriya Baba Deshpande :D

Sumedh Deshpande - the only reason why i am not punching you right in your face is cuz you've always been there for me.

WAIT! why did i want to punch you so bad?

I forgot :|

To a friend, for all his support and time ..

" मैं जभी जहा भी कड़ी धुप में था, तेरी ज़ुल्फ़ ने मुझ पे छाया किया "

(Main jabhi jaha bhi kadi dhup mein tha teri zulf ne muj pe chaya kiya)

So , thanks for using Garnier Fructis long and strong.

For it to be long, it's gotto be strong.. (HAHAHAHA!)

Apna khayal rakhna! (TAKE CARE!)

=]]

P.S. Bleh :P

P.P.S. Go die Deshpande. NOW! :D

P.P.P.S. Raaaaaaandomness at it's best :)

♥ Old times ♥ Old days ♥ Old songs ♥

I couldn't help myself from posting this lyrics to this song.

After ages it's come close to my heart once again.

So let kick back to the ♥ Old times ♥ Old days ♥ Old songs ♥

Here it goes,

SNUFF :)

Bury all your secrets in my skin

Come away with innocence and leave me with my sins

The air around me still feels like a cage

And love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again

So if you love me let me go

And run away before I know

My heart is just too dark to care

I can?t destroy what isn't there

Deliver me into my fate

If I'm alone I cannot hate

I don't deserve to have you

Ooh, my smile was taken long ago

If I can change I hope I never know

I still press your letters to my lips

And cherish them in parts of me that savor every kiss

I couldn't face a life without your lights

But all of that was ripped apart when you refused to fight

So save your breath, I will not care

I think I made it very clear

You couldn?t hate enough to love

Is that supposed to be enough?

I only wish you weren't my friend

Then I could hurt you in the end

I never claimed to be a saint

Ooh, my own was banished long ago

It took the death of hope to let you go

So break yourself against my stones

And spit your pity in my soul

You never needed any help

You sold me out to save yourself

And I won?t listen to your shame

You ran away, you're all the same

Angels lie to keep control

Ooh, my love was punished long ago

If you still care don't ever let me know

If you still care don't ever let me know

P.S. What am i gonah do with you - EVERYTHING! :)

P.P.S. Kd, for Slipknot is not all that bad after all..

P.P.P.S. Thing song is a forever thing :D

Agr0mania!

Wondering why?

Yes i have this real real real desire to be free, free from all the emotions.

I want to be on my own.

I want to be free from pain, sadness. Well wait all i am doing is just listing synonyms to LOVE.

I do not want to exist anywhere around love.

Well now when i see the 16 year olds walking hand in hand the first thing that troubles the shit out of my lil two bits is, what sort of magic would have brought them together?

It is as incomprehensible to me as a foreign language with different alphabets.

Don't y'all effing lil things know that it's not too much of a fun when you make someone a habit.

Cuz that habit is not gonah be with you forever.

I've come across so many relations and till date haven't found a single one working out.

All i see is the couples cheating on each other at some point of time.

Guy cheating on his girl with the girls best friend.

Girl cheating on her guy fo some stranger who promised to keep her happy.

AND YES OFCOURSE the most common of all cheating someone for ex-lover .. Many more..

And i don't understand like WHY in the world only 'I' had to witness all this..

Well after wasting my time for 2 years and not believing in what i saw around me i finally now have understood, THERE'S NOTHING CALLED AS TRUE LOVE!

People are so paranoid about getting ditched in a way or other by their partner, well why not?

They've earned thier straight ticket to paranoia, Since there nothing left to trust.

Trust is something which takes a long time to develop.

If not for trust i don't think the lil bit of relations out there would have been pulling it off till the end.

And lack of trust just makes love practically impossible.

Even if any miracle takes place, such kind of love is bound to fade away BIG TIME.

Plus to the various factors that add to a relationship -- the DISTRACTION and EXPECTATIONS is what i am talking about.

Well i would rather say that expectations and distractions are directly proportional to each other. HAHA!

Listen to this logic carefully,

When you don't fulfil the expectation there's always someone else to distract your partner who inturn fills the void created by the huge expectations.

And also vice versa, like -- When there's distraction, the expectations shoot up to the maximum level automatically.

Simple it is.

Guys want a variety or they'll leave you.

Well hello how much of a variety your mom was?

It's high time they should try to be a realistic lover.

And also should accept that they can't have everything in this world.

Not only guys, there are girls who'd dessert you if you are broke..

Like i am not even kidding, A friend of mine actually happens to wear guys on her sleeves.

she dusts them off if they can't spend on her.

Well this again is an unrealistic expectation girls have.

I mean your guy generally is of the same age as yours.

If you're studying, so is he.

And in that case HOW on the earth is he supposed to earn for you?

ALSO the few amazing issues that left me hating guys,

one of the chicks who told me how does her one helluva boyfriend, a highly nymphomaniac jerk just uses her for sleeping business.

And that he hits her and takes away all her sallary.

I mean c'mon how paralyzed are you by love that you couldn't leave such a chut.

Other case where the guy drinks and abuses the chick.

Another case where the 19 year old is on the verge of becoming a mom, and her guy has no sense of resposiblity towards her.

Still she craves for that jerk. So blinded by love, aren't you?

Well wait why are we getting into all the complexities of irresponsible people?

You'd never know what do they think about you.

Coming back to the simpler issues,

Lack of understanding ..

Like when you're in love you don't care what the rest of the people think you're.

Only that one persons take on you matters.

Plus when the partner refuses to accept you the way you're, it's damn sad.

You rather should go commit suidcide than planning to stay in the relationship.

Plus Relationship shouldn't be of the kinds where you aren't free to do anything.

If it's costing your freedom, then it obviously isn't worth the efforts.

They should trust you enough to set you free and to let you talk and express your way out.

Too much of crap involved no?

This is the sole reason why i am running away.

I do not want to change myself.

Neither do i want to be disappointed knowing that i am not too efficient for the who-so-ever partner.

Also that i immensely HATE the cheating business.

And i dont think i am much capable of tolerating the no freedom issue.

PLUS i hate math so much that i don't want to deal with the entire distraction & expectation equation..

I'd rather stay alone through out my life, than giving myself away to any random jerk.

P.S. Stay single. Live happy. Die proud.

P.P.S. I know you'd want to say that there are exceptions .. well those exceptions dont really remain exclusive for too long.

P.P.P.S I don't know if it's my imagination or is it for real that i've finally found something worth living for. Contradicts to my post no? But yes MUSIC it is. If not for music i'd be dead by now.

**Plays Brain damage by Pink Floyd**

Brain Damage Lyrics

The lunatic is on the grass The lunatic is on the grass remembering games and daisy chains and laughs got to keep the loonies on the path The lunatic is in the hall the lunatics are in the hall the paper holds their folded faces to the floor and every day the paper boy brings more

full lyrics

more Pink Floyd lyrics

Lights, camera -MOURN! :|

I've started to dislike emotions a lot.

And also that how these emotions just take a toll over you when you're sad.

Just plain and ugly everything seems.

You start thinking everyone's being so unfair.

Everything is so sad.

You wish all that you've lost comes back.

You start missing the moments that once made you laugh.

You ignore everything you have right now.

You focus more on what's gone, and certainly is never coming back.

Ya i am damn sad right now.

And i am feeling like a douche bag.

For everything i just let go.

I could have fought back my parents and would have never got shifted.

Just a small shift of residence, changed everything so drastically.

Crazy new world.

I never thought i'll be living something unusual.

I miss you Radhika, i miss every bit of the daily lukhagiri we did.

I miss every moment that i spent in ghatkopar which are now just memories.

I miss my old home.

All i can cherish is the memory of the pleasure i got when my only love rex; my pet, was around me.

I miss everything about you rex.

I miss every lil fight i had with my childhood friends, every next promise we made to never fight again.

I miss sitting on my usual place in the playground at the wee hours n miss star gazing.

I miss saving that whores not so sexy arse, who happened to break my life into infinite pieces.

I miss not being in the same area as my friends are.

I miss my school, the college - everything.

You wouldn't get the opportunity to read this Maitri, but i miss you ton.

I miss every lil thing about the seema-radhi-maitri trio.

I miss paras's guju accent.

I miss seeing my school friends every weekend.

I hate that i now dont have anything to replace the time of the day i spent with that jerk.

I hate that i fail to see if someone/something's filling the gap.

I hate everything about not seeing my friends for a long time.

I hate all the false promises.

I hate the pretentiousness, people now are so used to.

I hate the every bit of practicality the jerk spoke about.

I hate that everyone's getting over all these moments that i heart - A LOT.

I hate that i am too paralyzed to not get over it.

I hate not being practical.

I hate myself for being so skeptical.

I hate everything about not being able to say what i want to.

P.S. Just avoid the post. It's sadness :|

P.P.S. ...............

P.P.P.S .....................................

He was wronged.. :(

THIS SEXY MAN WAS WRONGED HE SHOULD BE LIVING

Something that kills me inside every time i read.

This is Kurt Cobain's suicide note. As with all rock stars there are conspiracy theories running wild, in Cobain's case the story goes that his wife Courtney Love had him murdered and the note is not a suicide note. Cobain never mentions his own death.

To Boddah:
Speaking from the tongue of an experienced simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile complain-ee. This note should be pretty easy to understand.

All the warnings from the punk rock 101 courses over the years, since my first introduction to the, shall we say, ethics involved with independence and the embracement of your community had proven to be very true. I haven't felt the excitement of listening to as well as creating music along with reading and writing for too many years now. I feel guilty beyond words about these things.

For example, when we're backstage and the lights go out and the manic roar of the crowds begin, it doesn't affect me the way in which it did for Freddie Mercury, who seemed to love, relish in the love and adoration from the crowd which is something I totally admire and envy. The fact is, I can't fool you, any one of you. It simply isn't fair to you or me. The worst crime I can think of would be to rip people off by faking it and pretending as if I'm having 100% fun.

Sometimes I feel as if I should have a punch-in time clock before I walk out on stage. I've tried everything within my power to appreciate it (and I do, God, believe me I do, but it's not enough). I appreciate the fact that I and we have affected and entertained a lot of people. It must be one of those narcissists who only appreciate things when they're gone. I'm too sensitive. I need to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasms I once had as a child.

On our last 3 tours, I've had a much better appreciation for all the people I've known personally, and as fans of our music, but I still can't get over the frustration, the guilt and empathy I have for everyone. There's good in all of us and I think I simply love people too much, so much that it makes me feel too fucking sad. The sad little, sensitive, unappreciative, Pisces, Jesus man. Why don't you just enjoy it? I don't know!

I have a goddess of a wife who sweats ambition and empathy and a daughter who reminds me too much of what I used to be, full of love and joy, kissing every person she meets because everyone is good and will do her no harm. And that terrifies me to the point to where I can barely function. I can't stand the thought of Frances becoming the miserable, self-destructive, death rocker that I've become.

I have it good, very good, and I'm grateful, but since the age of seven, I've become hateful towards all humans in general. Only because it seems so easy for people to get along that have empathy. Only because I love and feel sorry for people too much, I guess.

Thank you all from the pit of my burning, nauseous stomach for your letters and concern during the past years. I'm too much of an erratic, moody baby! I don't have the passion anymore, and so remember, it's better to burn out than to fade away.

Peace, love, empathy,

Kurt Cobain

Frances and Courtney, I'll be at your altar.
Please keep going Courtney, for Frances.
For her life, which will be so much happier without me.

I love you, I love you!

P.S. YOU WILL BE MISSED, FOREVER <3

(O)kay Dee(p) Shit!

Seema i have a problem socializing"

Hahaha! As if i din't figure that out the very first, no actually the second time when i met you :P

Okay figured out? not yet!

yes Kd i am bloggin about you today :D

LUJAR! when you said. "Seema, blog about me" i took it seriously then and there, though i pretended not to.
thats how nice i am :p

Okay people you should know it's Kd  A.K.A. Sumedh

1) When you see a guy from far far away whose wearing a Porcupine Tree (Gimme the tee & the discography!)

2) When someone stays with you on text day in and day out. Nothing makes him go away -_- jeez!

3) When you see someone sitting quietly in the corner, having beer & watching his friends howl like monkey and in between howling stalk's the girls kissing.. :P

4) When you receive lyrics as a text message..

5) When you see Aakash shetty going down on one knee for someone..

6) When you see someone getting hospitalized for getting thrown away while moshing with Afaque :D

7) When you see someone lie on a bar counter getting seduced by Soham with an ice cube :)) Jeez! His fantasy stories!

8) When you start getting pelar posts on your wall saying "tu cheez badi hai mast mast" :P

9) When you hear a guy talking more than very often about a hot chick he haven't even met :D

10) When you hear someone announcing every now and then that he now has a SLIGHT Beer Belly

11) When you meet a guy who thinks that dentists just stick their tongues in patients mouth..

12) When you come across a guy who's took an oath to not drink with Seema again because of the fear that she'd start pulling out teeth.

13) When you come across a guy who's demanding romantic conditions for getting raped by his so called hot chick :/

14) When you don't get the discography you'd once requested for..

15) When you come across someone who calls you awesome for the Hershey's you gave him which he loses after an hour. -_-

16) When you see someone quoting "You do not listen to music when with friends" after disconnecting Seema's ear plugs =x (seema gets pissed - *punches*)

17) When you see a third eye blind guy calling himself THE awesomeness .. *i mean WTF! everybody knows thats me :/

18) When you come across a wannabe dork.

19) When you come across a guy who has taste buds for Metal only.. (Yes he loves Gold, copper, iron, silver Blah blah.. And PORCUPINE TREE which stands as the only exception so far)

20) When you hear words like "BAAPNESS" , "TODU" , "CHAL EH, CHAL" more then very often..

21) When you come across a guy who would add into your most random hypothetical talks, as if he shared that figment of imagination with you.

22) When you come across a guy who had special appetite for Maggi  until last month.. Bwhahaha xD *ahem ahem*

23) When you share a secret & the lil jerk threatens to disclose the secret in public.

24) When you come across a guy who prefers to dream about Aakash running aound trees, laughing and jumping in rain..

25) When you come across this versatile guy who was with Ankit last weekend and is now with aki and dreams of a fling with soham.

26) When you hear someone alarm you about updating your blog by Saying "Bitch you owe me a post"

27) A person whom Seema is most likely to disown now cuz of making her do such mehnat -_-

No but seriously Kd, thenks for making everything as in life in general a cakewalk :)

Considering the person i was, i never thought i'd be stuk up with a jerk like you.

May every fucking one get a jerk'ish lil non beer belly friend like YOU!

P.S. No offence Aakash I wouldn't do anything to break what you and Kd share

P.P.S. .. Kd, you're SOOOOOOOO missing the LOG concert on 15th of May  (right?!) :-S .. Plijjj miss it!

Lou, SS.

The Evanescent Love.

Well this is for all the craziness i've been doing since i wasn't ready to face the fact that i don't belong to anyone anymore!

So here it goes,

When my friend told me that he's gonah help with my shit ass issue, i couldn't stop the gloom, that engulfed me.. i stood in the second class compartment with the friend constantly drfiting between happiness and sorrow, happiness cuz I was gonah see you & the sorrow cuz i wasn't able to see what hadd become of US! Crying-laughing! I didn't know this could be coming, i din't know that this river NEVER intented to meet the sea ..

There are times i find myself reveling in the aloneness instead of being lonely.. I be much honest to myself that way.. Now, using the simplest words ever, all i would say is i am hurt! Hurt cuz my fondness for the first love and everything i thought it was turned out to be totally wrong, it all went haywire.. And now i am trying to think of a logical solution that could explain what i have just done to myself - LAST SHOT, as i would frame it to be.. A shot that excluded the assumption that i was insane.. Insane cuz despite of knowing the facts, knowing that we're gonah have tough times and it would be hard to mend the trusts that still lies broken & at some point both of us may want to get out of it - But i also knew if i didn't  ask you to be mine, i'll regret it for the rest of my life.. Honestly speaking MAYBE i knew what the reality was. But again, i hate reality - it's way too clear to me..

I found you laugh at me that night, laughing at my helplessness.. Fun to see a girl beg, eh? thats lame of you cuz initially when i started to dislike you, i thought you're not a man but then i figured out that you're not a human being either! I remember every word you said, you said i'll regret this night just cuz i was drunk & didn't know what i was doing.. Drunk- agreed, i was.. But i still was x100 more in sense than you ever were.. I am so angry right now that the heat of my anger should physically burn you.. more than angry i am amused, I was crazy & didn't realize i am confusing my dreams with reality which felt so convinient then.. The last shot - as i framed it earlier - either way, was entirely depended on your decision. Cuz i had made mine, even before i'd consiously chosen it & i was committed.

Well let me not be a diplomat, who juggles and manipulates his statement.. I don't care what you are now and what changed you.. All i know is i loved the man you were, the man whom i loved.. And thinking about then, no one ever tried to adjust with YOU so much cuz no one was so aware of you as i was.. No one watched you the way i did.. No one respected you as much as i did.. But i've decided not to be the miserable one.. Knowing you so much already i have decided to distance myself from you.. Cuz i want to leave intact the LITTLE respect i still have for you.. The more i try, the more i'll learn you & the more you'll lose respect.. And moreover your influence over me, more than pathetic is dangerous.. My bad had i figured you out earlier i would have been able to save my personality from some serious scars..Nevertheless i still can, cuz i know i am WORTH IT!

On a last note i would just say that prosperity is NOT when you measure the love you've received, It's when you love someone regardless the measure! 

P.S. - Life had offered you a dream so far.. and it obviously was beyond any of your expectations.. Don't grieve on them in the future cuz YOU BLEW IT UP

P.P.S. - Friendship is beyond anything, atleast it doesn't require a permission from the GOD's MEN!

P.P.P.S. - **I-AM-WAY-TOO-FUCKING-AWESOME-FOR-YOU!**

Peace out,

** Play's 'I fucking Hate You' by 'Godsmack' And hits on repeat **